By: Molly
Justin and I met in June 2009. We flirted and made a connection from the start. We were inseparable from that day on, spending every minute we could together. We had obstacles to overcome but we never let them bring us down. We knew we had something special and we couldn’t let that go. it’s hard to go from talking all day long to having barely any communication at all. My heart broke when he had to leave, but I just always remind myself we will be together again.
I wake up in the morning, knowing I won’t get to see him today but that there’s a 50/50 chance that I could hear from him. That’s what motivates me to get up and start each day. When I get out of bed, I always look at his picture and read a love note he wrote me that hangs on my mirror. I get myself ready and check my computer, hoping for an update or just to hear anything at all. On my way out to start my day, I always make sure I drop a letter in there for him.
Most my day is spent at school, but even then it’s hard to focus all the time. I can’t do anything without my phone, it’s like a permanent attachment to me now. I doodle little love drawings all over my papers and daydream about us. I always rush home at the soonest time I can so I can be there when the mail gets there. I always take a deep breath and check the mail like I’m scared of what could be in there. When I get a letter, my heart just races and I can’t stop smiling for the rest of the day! I read them over and over again, tearing up each time. If I don’t get anything, I pick myself up and remind myself that tomorrow is another day, that I can’t win everyday.
The rest of my night is spent cleaning up, making dinner, and doing schoolwork. I can’t shower, walk into another room, or anything without having my phone with me. If I’m at work and my phone rings, I freak out and run into the other room in case it might be him. I lay in my bed at night and watch my shows. I make time, each night, to write him a letter. The letters mean so much to write because to me, they’re like my way of talking to him about my day like I normally would. Even though he can’t read them right then, I feel like we got to talk and I got to express my feelings to him. I lay in bed with a stuffed animal we have, sprayed with his cologne, and look up the sky as I think about him before I fall asleep. Nights when I can’t sleep, I re-read his letters or text messages I have saved or look at all our pictures.
When he got a short break and we were together, it was like meeting each other all over again. Sparks flew between us, but at the same time, it seemed like we hadn’t even left each other. He proposed to me during this time together, it was such an amazing moment! We had to leave each other not long after it happened though and the normal daily cycle started up again. Having to leave the one you love, never gets easier.
I cherish every moment we get to spend together, even every moment I just get to hear from him. The littlest things mean so much and help me push through my day. It’s not easy to be a military girlfriend, or fiancé, but I know it’ll be worth it in the end. True love has no limits, and true love waits. If I feel like I can’t do it anymore, I just remember how much I love him to keep myself going strong. I have a strong support group and even meet some amazing girls going through the same thing, and we all help each other.
Molly
