Broken

My boyfriend and I have been dating for seven months this time. Last time we broke up was because he couldn’t handle the distance. We broke up for a while. We got back together and he has not been the same towards me. Like after he broke up he fought so hard to get me back. When he got me back, he became so mean to me. He never sends me sweet messages anymore. He does not even call me as much and says he is too busy but he does not have a job or anything. Lately, he has been smoking weed and drinking which I do not agree with. Well, it’s New Years so I knew he would and all I asked was for him to tell me beforehand so I could stop texting him and he promised he would. Well, he got super high and did not tell me for one hour but he was acting strange so I asked him and he told me he was super high and that I should not get mad cause at least he is not cheating. Honestly, weed is a very bad thing to me that I do not like because it changes people. I just I do not know what to do. Honestly, it is the only time he is ever nice to me though. He is always mean to me calling me names and stuff. Here recently I found out he has been texting a girl he talked to over the summer, and I trust him but she sent him naked photos. I told him to block her but he said no because she was a good friend. Then she asked to hang out over break and I asked him to show me the messages but he refused and said he deleted them.

Hey! I will try to make the shortest summary.

I met Dylan through Twitter on the 25th June or so. We didn’t talk much at that time, we started to chat more often in August.

I also liked a guy, they knew each other personally, but this other guy, Raul, used to be a friend of mine. I didn’t know him personally either, and I met him the same way. I left Raul and told him I liked Dylan… I know it wasn’t a good move, and I feel horrible about it.

We live 4 hours apart by car. I went to his city 2 times. The first time, he was busy, and the second one, was after we had broken up. We were not dating the 1st time I went, but he didn’t want to meet up with me, even though he said he went to the place I told him where I would be.

We started dating on the 5th of September, and we broke up in October because I was hurting him. I was having feelings for Raul because I felt bad about what I had done. I loved Dylan but I felt guilty.

Dylan has issues with alcohol and hazard games. He doesn’t have a good life and he works really hard. We chat when he is free. Through Twitter because he doesn’t have a phone. I had trust issues at the beginning. He sent me pics, but I don’t know. I just… I love him and he says he loves me but I don’t know if I should let him go because I’m not good for him or what.